failure...

is down..
hot tears welled up..
why I cry?
others subs.. I will not..
isn't it seems to be stupid..
40 sth again..
again.....and again...
d moment when I heard..
d word..f--l..Im reali so unhappy...
eyes r hot..
mood changed immediately...
I really.. cant smile..
I cant continue the lesson...
mood is ...
so ...
d o w n ...
I hate myself.. idiot.. fool..
a failure......

down..

is d o w n...
so tired..
.....is difficult to breath..

She smiles sweetly
to hide her fear
to hide the pain
that is always near

Her stomach aches
from being sad
She wants to stop
feeling so bad

She wishes the world
were a happier place
that way she could put
a smile on her face

Will no one notice
the pain that's inside
Can no one see
how much she's cried

wanting to feel free
wanting to be happy
tired of pretending
there is no misery

What will it take
for people to know
that the smile she shows
is actually fake?

She has the world fooled
thinking she's pleased
with how her life's going
Can they be so naive

But someday soon
someone will see
and notice that there
is no bright moon

to light up her misery
to fade away pain
and make her really smile
once again....

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