已经没想象中的坚强

痛..是什么感觉?
是想呐喊却..
无言.. 泪..是什么?
怎么说流就流?
眼睛哭真得很累了。
但泪水还是一直不停地流.. 以为完了..
可是却还有还有..
好像有着哭不尽的眼泪..
总以为自己能坚强起来..
却总被打败.. 真的很痛..
白痴，白痴，白痴真的很白痴..
真的很想大大声说一句我很辛苦。

(^.^)

Tomorrow night there is a buffet at my house..
bai tian gong.. every year there is a buffet..
become tradition ald..
every year my frens asking me a same question..
u r a hakka but then why r u celebrating bai tian gong..
erm.. cox my mummy is a hokkien..^^
since I was baby there is buffet every year..

my 2009..
happy chinese year..
haha...there are ang paos..
during this new year something happens too..
lolx.. secret oo..
actually I have regret staying back for senior 3..
works are tough..and .. something happens..
why I m staying back?
haha.. cox.. secret..
I shouldnt stay back..
shouldnt..
is only making my tears dropping ..
and blue-ing..
these days ..
heart is slicing into pieces..
giving up on something is not easy..
jx try to let it go naturally ..
better than stubborn on it..
tat's a best way..
is it to all of u .. I m really a happy and tough girl?
haha..
lolx..
last time "HAHA" is only a chicken feet for me to say or typing out..
now.. is rather difficult .. dono why..hehe.. nvm ..
time will change de oo..
and I know lucky star and happy star will always follow me..^^
:P
cheers oo..

that's too late for me to say "regret"..
books bought..
and result released..
no one can change the facts..
really exhausted..
is really a heavy burden for me..
anywhere ..
just let it ..
go naturally
mood is always blue..

long time dint post up new article..
whenever I type a new article in half way..
I delete .. stop writing..
and give up the article..
really have no idea with what to continue..

haha..
dono lar..
life..
what & why?
actually I have a lot of questions..
with no answer...
better keep it silent..
cox.. life is like that..
someone told me..
time can change a lot of thing..
Yup..
u r right..
but then..
maybe it change to..
worse.. or better..
who knows..

start from now..
I will put more efforts on study..
and let other things go naturally..
hehe..
friends are important..
study is very important..
everything is important..
just let everything go naturally..
sure good lucks will follow me..
and happy things will happen..
something will change if u don really stubborn on it..
^^..
sure one day..
everything will change to good..
and what I wish will come true..
hehe ..
love u ..
my family..
my friends..
muacks..

future is always that beautiful..
and I will prove I m unique..
I can if I want to do so..
UEC.. aim for at least few As..
UEC.. I m working towards u ..
other than UEC..of cox.. I hope something will change..
especially..
erm..
best wishes to myself..
good lucks to myself..
ganbatte to myself..
happy always.. all the best..^^
(",) happy days oo..

happy new year..

happy new year.. buddies..

GONG XI GONG XI..

GONG XI FA CAI..

hehe.. ang pao ang pao..

sweep every sadness away..

welcome for new happiness..

^^

:P

hehe..

2009..

time flies..
its 2009..
I 've neglected my blog for quite a number of days..
senior 3 now.
haha..

We changed to UEC class, combined with new classmates, they r rather nice.
The books are rather tough.
It standard is equivalent to A level.
Maths .. I feel bit dizzy..haha
my mood is down..
acting is like a mask putting on yr face, will u feel relax? or like something fake have stick on yr face and u wish to pull it down immediately?
acting is not that easy..

every classes need to paint up new paints.
And our class started.
We chose light green and yellow.
We have 4 walls.
So 2 r using green and 2 r using yellow.
Let's have a look at our efforts.
haha..

bro's KL new house.

大哥KL的新家。
他的新家在 SETIA ECO-PARK.
为了去领袖集训营，大哥的新家入伙派对，我没有出席。
昨天去看了大哥的新家，不错哦。
哈哈。SETIA ECO-PARK 全部屋子是没有门的。
那里很舒服，很自由。
感觉很自在。
二哥日本的新家也是刚入伙不到一年，真想看看。
听三姐说很美。哈哈。
两家的价钱..^^~~
这就是他的新家，做了一个小slide show。
^^

我的X'mas eve 24th 与 X'mas 25th ^^...

哈哈。
我的平安夜，下午去唱k。
晚上，去支持，看顾，外甥们的歌唱比赛。
他们啊，参加了很多歌唱比赛。
KELVIN 9 岁。
CANNY 4 岁。
昨天KELVIN 拿殿军，CANNY 拿到优秀奖+最佳服装奖。
今天，圣诞节，CANNY 去PARADE参加了Miss Little Santarina Contest的比赛。
比赛是公开给任何4~12岁的小女孩。
有26位参赛者。
今天CANNY 很棒， 很棒!
让我意想不到，哈哈。
她很会遥，很会扭屁股，跳舞，唱歌。
所以，打败其他24个人，夺了季军， 季军耶!
哈哈，全场的参赛者们都大过她!

我的小侄子~小展宏的生日哦。

我二哥的儿子~小展宏。
他的一岁生日哦，12月8日。
哥哥，带他去拍的哦。
我啊，还没见过他。因为这小可爱身在日本。
也许要等些日子吧，才能看见这小可爱。
哈哈...
我有4个外甥，6个侄。
他排行第9哦，刚出生了一年的小可爱。

冬至快乐!

冬至了耶!
哇，怎么那么快啊...
假期好像才刚开始，2008年，好像刚开始不久似的。

明天有汤圆吃lu。哈哈。
其实我并不觉得汤圆好吃，但还是会吃，
因为代表家人团团圆圆嘛，还有是我妈咪下厨叻，哈哈。
一年几次，难得。
挺回味的。
妈咪嘛，平常都不下厨，但一下厨，果然，截然不同。

我真的很爱我的家人。
这种难以表达，只能用"心"去感受。
哈哈。
通常人长得越大，都不敢亲妈咪。
但我还是会。
妈咪，都把我推开，但相信做妈咪的，有哪位不喜欢让孩子亲亲。
所以，有时我的行为，让家人都觉得我还没长大。
在家人面前总要耍点小孩子嘛。
哈哈。

谢谢你们~我的家人。
我生长在一个比上不足，比下有余的小康之家，
比上是指非常有钱的家庭，比下就是需要担心吃住得家庭。
我的生活，可说不必为生活担忧。
活得很幸福。
你看我胖嘟嘟的，就晓得了。
小叶啊，很幸福~

要开学了，怎么感觉怪怪的呢?
朋友大多都走了，念学院了。
我啊，怎么会决定留下啊?
因为，就是我的感性的性格让我留下。
我真的无法接受新的环境，对，迟早都要接受，
但我宁愿不要让自己后悔不留下来，反正还年轻。
中学生涯再多10个月多吧~
真的觉得自己很善变....
一开始，坚决不留下来，
现在却360度大转变。
很多人都搞不懂我在想什么。
但是，我只是不想让自己后悔。
留下，也不错。各有千秋。

加油。
只要我说要做到，那就去做，别再3分钟热度。

哦，原来我长到现在都不知道冬至的英文是什么。
刚查辞典晓了，是 HappY Winter Solstice..
哈哈。大家冬至快乐!
记得做人要将心比心，尝试去新事物，往往你会发现不同。

today..

20th .. TodaY..XD

I brought my 2 nieces and nephew to ICCCLUB(Ipoh City Country Club).
There were two competition, Fashion Show and Colouring Contest.
They often take part in Colouring contest, singing contest and blar blar blar.
So, to me, it seems like nth special ald. lolx.
We seemed to be lucky.
3 of them were taking part, and we got 3 tickets.
The tickets were used for lucky draw.
I cant believe it.
8 prizes of lucky draw, and we got 3.
3 out of 8 prizes.
haha.. 008,009 and 015, these were the numbers.

Wow,they are fabulous! haha..
Can u imagine a 4 yrs old kid, standing on the stage My niece, 4 yrs old, Canny Chong.
She got a consulation prize for the fashion show.
My nephew, 9 yrs old, Kelvin Chong.
He got 3rd place for the fashion show.
And come to my eldest niece, Winnie Chong, 12 yrs old.
She got the Champion for the colouring contest. Haha.. it's happy.
Actually, Canny and Kelvin costumes are used for singing competitions and performances.
Since it's also suit for fashion show, so, haha.. is a way to kill two birds with one stone.

Say the truth, it's rather boring there, watching those kids jumping around. Haha, I m their aunt.So forced to do so, and I'm nothing to do at home, just sit in front of the laptop. lolx..compare with that.
This is more valuable to spend my time on.Haha..It's rather lame with seeing so many words here.

So, let's enjoy with those photos..
A lot of nice costumes...hehe..ENJOY it buddies.