failure...

is down..
hot tears welled up..
why I cry?
others subs.. I will not..
isn't it seems to be stupid..
40 sth again..
again.....and again...
d moment when I heard..
d word..f--l..Im reali so unhappy...
eyes r hot..
mood changed immediately...
I really.. cant smile..
I cant continue the lesson...
mood is ...
so ...
d o w n ...
I hate myself.. idiot.. fool..
a failure......

down..

is d o w n...
so tired..
.....is difficult to breath..

She smiles sweetly
to hide her fear
to hide the pain
that is always near

Her stomach aches
from being sad
She wants to stop
feeling so bad

She wishes the world
were a happier place
that way she could put
a smile on her face

Will no one notice
the pain that's inside
Can no one see
how much she's cried

wanting to feel free
wanting to be happy
tired of pretending
there is no misery

What will it take
for people to know
that the smile she shows
is actually fake?

She has the world fooled
thinking she's pleased
with how her life's going
Can they be so naive

But someday soon
someone will see
and notice that there
is no bright moon

to light up her misery
to fade away pain
and make her really smile
once again....

............................................

is a blu3 day..

today.. is so blue..
h a i..x

so unhappY..

so unhappy..
everything is like a burden..
I cant breathe..
pls let me free..
haix.. bt it is impossible...
calm down..and be happy..
so that everyone around u will feel happy too..

todaY.. happy + sad..

today chemis.. I dint hv enof confident..
malay.. like out of topic ald..
h a i x.. wat's going on..
everything like going not very well..
I wish to be like this.. but it goes other ways round..
I really feel ms annie and ms chong r so nice..
^^
I like them..
I really so scare.. to disappoint ms chong..
I scare to fail chemis.. but..
ha ix..
I really dono.. today chemis paper. is quite..tough..
I feel..
mayb I m only one who feel tat..
I feel..
my attitude changed..
from bad to worst..
become no manners...
bad tempers...
easy to get angry..
and today I talked loud to father..in d phone..
omg..
haix...

mooncake festival + final exam...o.O

mooncake festival + final exam..
how to enjoy?
h a i x.......

pass le.. ^^

hehe.. Im happy..
I pass my car test..
so happy..
at 1st .. very panic ..
the little bukit =.=
finally all pass..
thats good..
our game stall more than 2000 tickets..
is great..
haha
now wanna concentrate on final exam already..
add oil lor..
^^

food&fun fair.. over..

fun & food fair is over..
our game stall got rather well outcome..
the tickets overflow..
use an extra tissue box..
full too..
wow.. that's amazing..^^
really glad..
our efforts r worth..
food stall.. is rather ok too..
fun & food fair over..
everythg will back to normal..
is it good or bad?
I dont know..
final exam is on this Sat..
and I'm doin nth..O.o
no exam's mood at all..
I believe no one likes exams too ..
lolx..
ms chong is great.. she's a nice teacher.. really..
ms annie .. hehe .. ^^.. so sweet... ^^.. really so thx her..
I know who treat me good.. and I will do all my best for them..
if need my helps .. I will do my best to help..
I will oso help automatically without the request too...
human can b vry good ..but.. who's true.. who's fake..
when time passes.. true nature.. will slowly show..
when nth happen.. everythin is nice..
when d person do smthg wrong... v will keep on talking d right & wrong ..
it's a prejudice..
h a i x... human nature..
mayb u & I are one of those..

5th of sep...

Sunday is fun fair already..
everyone is working so hard..
our class is vy co-operate..
that's great..
no arguing..
no complain..
I'm rather bad.. just help a little...
doin homeworks and playing there..
feel guilty...o.o
they are great..
really
have to praise them from the bottom of my heart..
hehe
hope that v can get a good outcome..
Ms Annie is a fabulous teacher..
I like her so much..
respect her..
as a teacher..
she do all her best for students..
Ms Chong too...
vy nice.. hehe ^^

h a i x..

be happy my dear..
u did all yr best..
yr tired face.. make feel so sad..
I wish to help u..
but I dono what to do..
h a ix... I m really so sad.. to c u being so tired cox ..
pls sleep earlier and take a good rest...
is not worth to think tat..
u r d best .. and the one I respect the most..
and the one I love the most..

OmG..

hooray.. 5 rounds .. completed..
thats good.. hehe ^^
next week car test.. ^^ ganbatte..
and
next Saturday final exam ald.. omg...
really so scary..
o.o
ganbatte en...

^^

car triaL test pass.. ^^
next week is real test..
bit worry.. especially going up to d little hill....
hehe.. today improve a lot.. change d gears automatically..
no need ppl remind.. hehe.. can control better ald.. hooray...
happy..
today many homeworks.. =.=""..
tomorrow 1500 meters running test.. =.="""
vomit "white bubbles.".... anywhere.. jz do all my best
ganBatte lar.. ^^

leTs hv a LooK at thEsE memOrabLe picTureS.. can U feeL thE haPpinesS? anD wiSh to keeP aLL theSe momEntS forEvEr... MeMorAbLe OnE... ^^

  The Moment - Kenny G   The Moment - Kenny G    

1st of sepTember.. me.. better mood.. ..

new months. .~ time flies....

feeLing... bit worrY & bit looKinG forward...

fun faiR coming in daYs ..

of cox wish ouR class S2S2 gameS staLL & food sTaLL.. has a satisying outcome.. ganBatte..

exams around the corneR.. aLL ouR teacheRs r so worrY.. and do aLL theiR best to help us.... and what m I doin heRe?

I'm reaLi so UseLess..

h a i x...

think positvelY .. be haPpy.. smiLe alwaYs..

nice msg ~

"a smiLe is a curve that seTs everything straight and wipes the wrinkLes awaY. Hope u receive a loT of smiLes TodaY and share a Lot of smiLes todaY."

"silenT and smiLe r two PowerfuL tooLs :

SmiLe is the waY to solve many ProBlems & Silence is the waY to avoid manY problems.

So have a silent smiLe for aways. "

these are so meaningfuL.. but .. is difficulT attain.. ~ be happY..

fUn FaiR.. toDaY.. TmL.. FiNaL exaM.. o.o

Times fLieS..........

nexT SunDAy fun faiR aLD.. hehe .. buddieS.. let's coMe to Poi LaM independenT scHooL oo.. anD of cox comE to S2S2... ouR cLasS plaY plaY.. a loT of fUn thereE... hehe.... anD oso S2S2's fooDsTaLL... TasTy and deLicioUs foodS...

Ms. AnnIe...a sweeT teachER.. I luv u.... ReaLi so nice To chaT with U .. and hv u around ..

toDay dinT taKe triaL caR tesT.. coz d JPJ nt free.. =.="" changEd to nexT TuesDay ald.. I'm road " chi" canT rmB the roads weLL de.. now.. ok Jor .. haha...

wanT caR teSt ald.. but stiL maTi enginE.. aiyo.. me ar... quiTe "cha shui" lar... anYwhere .. everYthing is goinG weLL.. jz hav to praCtisE more.. and familiaR with those... haha ganBattE oo.. hehe.. surE u caN do it de ~

AfteR fun faiR .. finaL eXam jor... so fasT =.=""".... so worrY.. I afraiD faiL d samE subs again.. I don'T wanT to faiL chemis.. coz.. ms chonG reaLLi helps me a Lot.. she is givinG few Of us extra leSsons everY Sat.... omg.. how nice she is ? she is reali a nc teaCher..realli hope I caN pass it.. ganBatteE oo!

27th AuGuSt ... GlaDDesT DaY..

DinT expecT to meeT triLLiguaL speech comPetiTion's BuddieS In Poi LAm...reaLLy so hapPy.. memorable hugS.. HappiEsT daY sincE I bacK frOm BuKiT MerTajam.. misS d daYs .. so mucH.. althoUgh the dayS canT Zzz anD eaT weLL..woRRying abouT d comPeTiTioN and felT dowN.. but D feeLing ~ meeT aGaiN.. reaLLy makeS me haPPy.. anD misS the DaYs.. a loT..

It makEs me reCaLL.. the daYs .. practiSinG speechES..miSs d daYs.. aLthoUgh thE daYs.. are quiTe harD.. dono hoW mucH TeaRs droppEd..lolx.. OmG..timeS flieS.. h a i x.. so MaO duN.. beFoRe comPeTitION wisH it pasSes faster.. now.. miSs d daYs.. tHis is humaN's NaTuRe.. loLx..

So misS d daYs.. reaLLy so miSs d daYs.. with.. Ms. Annie... and friends..
I thank U.. froM d bottoM of mY hearT, for yr encouragemenT & Patience all TheSe Days, Im so touchEd... You look aS sweeT as Yr SmiLe, anD U are the Greatest TEACHer ~ Ms. AnNiE....~ LuV u~..

feeling... d o w n 25th AuGust

time.. flies..
mood .... getting down..
nt confident .. nt "happy go lucky" like before..
national level trilligual speech competition over.. I should feel relax. but then.. it's opposite...
just now my gd fren said .. she wants to stay for senior 3.. n .. it is weird.. I feel nth.. n ..I din hv some sorts of thinking.. like want to stay for 1 more year..
mayb.. life for now.. is really makes me feel tired.. should I use the word "tired".. I think that's nt tired.. I hv no idea wit using wat word.. to express it out..
and these days.. ppl ... things around.. giving me kinda ..heavy burdens.. I feel.. wish to cry when I m alone..
I wish I m too sensitive.. and it is not real.. teachers .. sometimes u guys r very nc.. bt I can feel out somethg different..
thats nt a nc feeling..
I nd something.. bt nt this .... mayb I m a student.. who cant reach yr lvl.. bt .. u know.. I m ..
frenz.. like going far.. nt vy close like bfore.. mayb is becoz growing up.. n nt talkative like bfore... me .. myself.. jz wish to be silent.. sometimes.. n I can feel .. many frenz too.. coz.. v r all facing different pressure.. and thing.... ppl..
no one is understanding me...in fact .. I think is me.. myself .. cant let ppl understand.. or.. I m too emotional..
teacher and frenz around me ...are nice... I think is my own prob...
I wish I can get out from this condition...
hoping new life .. can start soon..
pls.. time ..fly faster.. bt .. I miz my frens.. and teachers so much.. my heart is kinda.. mao dun..
anywhere.. days must pass.. things hv to be over.. and human need to grow right..?
I prefer new lifestyle.. ..better than now.. in fact.. thats only months there..
I know what should I do.. but it seems like.. I m not doing it..
wow.. what happen to me..!!!
dont worry be happy.. this sentence .. is easy to say.. bt it's complicated.. and difficult to attain...
come on.. cheer up.. for me to feel hopeful.. I must come to believe.. in my future.. I can attain my goal...
ganbatte..
u r thinking too much e v o n...take a deep breathe..and think positively.. n there will be a nicer..wonderful view.. !!!!
lolx.. just like a crazy person.. talking to myself..
wow.. I have typed a lot of rubbish here.. I din expect tat.. is rather long..
anywhere .. this is just my rubbish words..
I will cherish myself.. and the things around me..
CHEER UP !! no 1 can help u .. instead of u .. yrself...! lolx.. advising myself.. kinda crazy ...

Im back.. 21th AuGust

Came back from Bukit Mertajam ald..

It's a great and nice competition..I din regret take part in trillingual speech competition..during competition days cant zzz and eat well.. and worry this and that.. but I like d days.. the memorable hugs .. before left.. .

miss the days so much... with buddies.. dono when we can gather again..

I love u .. ms annie.. u r a great teacher... really .. thanks for all these days yr patience.. and encourages..
after this competition.. cant talk with u always ald... is quite sad... anywhere.. u really make me feel touched... and also.. I will not forget the days with u forever...
thx .. shin er..
I m rather satisfied with the result.. but eng.. haix .. I m quite confident wit that compare wit malay .. but it turns out.. I feel very sad abt that... I like this competition.. make a lot of frens..
feel very d o w n.. and miss the days so much.. but time flies...
... MS ANNIE... THX AND LUV U SO MUCH.....!!!!!! U R A GREAT AND FABULOUS TEACHER !

competition le...^^ ganbatte en... 14th AugUst

ganbatte oo.. hehe .. tomolo go to Bukit Mertajam national level trillingual competition ald..
bit nervous.. bit looking forward..
I will do all my best..
hehe^^... .... ganbatte ...
I will do all my best.. teachers thanks ...
I want to prove it...........................

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